So ... Bring It On

I intend to create a sacred space in my home where I will not be interrupted for a whole day each week and I will see what happens. I will use music and candles to invite myself to creativity and space. I’m going to really indulge myself for the first time in years.

I am apprehensive about many parts of this. I will need to hold much with the principles and not beat myself when my creations are ‘rubbish’. I want to go toward seeing beauty on the page, created and allowed by me.

I am quite scared about the inner me which may be revealed and things from the past which may come up for me to face. I am ready to ‘embrace tiger and return to mountain’.

I also am holding the thought that ‘nothing’ may happen and I will become frustrated.

I have read that the Tibetan’s, once they have created their Mandalas, destroy them, to be reminded of impermanence. Being a person who clings desperately to all things, this will be a real challenge too.

I thought that I would encompass my first two ideas and maybe create Mandalas under trees or in nature when I feel this movement in me and also maybe use some of my music to invoke feelings which inspire.

I feel enthusiastic about this journey which lies before me and I am holding another fear of boredom and not being able to maintain the enthusiasm for a whole year, however, I think this project has the potential to be very diverse and with the Mandala theme running through my life, many new things could happen.

As always, although slightly apprehensive, I am looking forward to all the challenges, joys and pleasures I will hopefully encounter along the way. This already feels like such a gift.

It feels most of all, like I did not choose this project as such, more that it showed itself to me as an opportunity.