Feeling The Approach Of Another Growth Year

I'm sitting here on the edge of 2006, contemplating the past and the coming year.

On the one hand feeling sad as life is not yet as I would like it to be .. and on the other, acknowledging that some huge things have happened and are continuing to happen because 'Deepening' is taking place and therapy moves me on and on, round and round on a spiral out of here.

Although the first year on the Deepening has not been plain sailing by any means, alongside therapy, it has taught me so much about 'me'. I am beginning to be able to touch a much quieter and calmer place inside myself, which was there all along and I always rushed past. I've been learning to stop and look because it is worth it and because I am actually not as bad as I fear. At Poulstone and now and again in my daily life, I am also learning to turn towards love and light and I'm starting to believe that one day it will mostly be love and light and I will no longer need to turn away.

It feels sometimes like I have to fight so hard, just to get up in the morning. When life is difficult, I'm grateful to make it through each day, as I feel very often it would be easier to just lie down in a corner forever and give up and I don't.

I look forward wholeheartedly to the project which lies before me and another year of learning to live in the moment and embrace the life I was born to live.

A year or so ago, I met the Barefoot Doctor (Stephen Russell) at a book signing .. in my book, in response to our brief conversation, he wrote ;














I feel thankful for so much, not least the inspiring 'teachers', who have been and who are now, part of my life.

So, for them, all of them (and some of them do not know who they are !)

Rose coloured healing vapour & a lot of present moment magic, now.
And of course Love

SH December 31st 2005