The Deepening Meet Approaches

It's almost the end of January and the next meeting of the Deepeners is on the horizon.

Emotionally, January has been quite huge for me, several large movements have happened in therapy as I become more and more aware of why everything is as it is.

I have been de-cluttering my room for the start of my project. I have invested in a rocking, swiveling, reclining chair for contemplation and a sofa bed.

I have purged many un-needed 'things' from my space.

Am I looking forward to the coming meet ? I think so, although, I feel like it has been a long time coming around again and I don't know if it will be long enough for me to really drop in and 'come to Poulstone' fully. Although I am feeling low again, I am open as always to whatever processing offers itself to me.

For months now, I have suspected RSI in my right elbow, this week I finally saw the doctor and have been told I have inflammation in my elbow, shoulder and chest. I have also had a cranio sacral therapy and the message here was that holding in my chest around my heart chakra is causing holding in my back and shoulder and manifesting in my elbow. I have been trying to 'fix' this with Tai Chi exercises and after talking with R today, I am going to bring my awareness to it and just try to 'hear' it's call rather than be a victim or master of it as I have been doing.

I am still struggling big time with my weekly practice group in the absence of G where various things are pressing my buttons and a consequence is that I am no longer allowing it to nourish me.

I look forward to spending more time in R's teaching.