More Normality In Bath And The Italian

I had a day in Bath with P, it was a nice day .. I was fear filled in the Roman Baths when we went into a very claustrophobic section which was stuffy and packed with people, I felt it all closing in on me, I felt the feelings of panic, I felt my shoulders hunch in and my chest close up, I had the urge to run, to escape .. I straightened my spine and pulled my shoulders back, I stood with the fear .. I did this continuously until we emerged into the light the other side of the fear .. I was in this situation many years ago in Lands End, on that occasion I could not hold or stand with the fear and feelings of claustrophic overwhelm and I ran .. I celebrate that I have moved on even when it feels like I haven't. We met up with J for a couple of hours which ended in sitting hand in hand in the park, giving and recieving the love and support which is there between us because of the Deepening.

V, L and I went to the Italian, I was feeling very emotional, overwhelmed by another full on week and as I let go into the evening, I had a really great time .. thanks to the two beautiful people I shared it with. Apparently, I am a Hobbit !!