The Noble Dual Carriageway

There have been 12 hours of motorcycle training over 2 days (I ask myself - why am I putting myself through this ?) I have not so far had the wish to stand properly in front of this, so I tell myself I don't know why.

The Instructors tell me, I must attempt to meet the speed limit on the dual carriageway, I am so scared, I do not feel in control .. I approach the roundabout, I feel the tension every time .. what else can I do but, sit up straight on the seat, feel my spine, open my chest, relax my arms and my shoulders and remain in the moment where all is well, soon it is over .. soon it will all be over one way or another.

After the first day, I was not as tired as I thought I would be, after the second day, I was exhausted.

I go for a massage, aching all over, some places more than others .. L goes to work, my shoulders and forearms are rigid, the muscles so tight .. she pays particular attention and although it hurts, I feel better after .. I had decided to walk, to stretch my body, as I leave, I regret that decision, as I just want to fall straight into bed. However, I take a slow amble home and dusk is just starting to arrive, the night will soon be here, the light is strange, but pleasant .. things seems to glow in the twilight .. by the time I reach home .. I feel much better .. very relaxed and the aching doesn't seem so bad somehow .. I eat tea and I fall into bed .. grateful that L has such a perfect touch (no matter what my circumstance) and grateful that I walked ..