It's Project Day Tomorrow ..

.. and I can't help feeling the end, so close now .. there are just three more project days left including tomorrow and suddenly, I don't want to do this anymore .. for the first time in the whole year since I started this amazing project journey ..

("Note to Self" this has been an amazing project journey and absolutely without question that is true)

.. I don't want it to be project day tomorrow .. I don't want it ever to be project day again ..

.. AND ..

.. I WILL NOT LET THE FEARFUL PART OF ME DESTROY WHAT I HAVE FOUND ..

.. someone tell me I can do this .. tell me I can make it through the end of the Deepening and the end of my project in it's current form because right now .. I can't ..

.. why does the best thing that ever happened to me have to end ?