Finally Out Of The Starting Blocks - Day 1

February 16th 2006

The Dog and I went for our first 'Project Walk'. We stopped to speak to the lady on the bus stop who used to know a bull terrier called Mollie, she didn't have any biscuits though, so we weren't really interested.

The sky was dark and it was bright

There was sun and there was lots of rain

We got wet and deep down, we were dry

I was there in the moment and I was not there at all

After our walk, I went to the shop, I bought Milky Bar. Milky Bar and I have been apart too long. I bought flowers, I waited to see which flowers would call to me, did I want red, white, lilies or chrysanthumums ? Some deep orange carnations in the centre of the bucket caught my eye, I tried to pull them out by the plastic wrapper, that was fine but the flowers were holding on. I dipped deeper into the bucket and took them by the stems, they agreed they would come.

I made a mandala of chocolate, flowers and candles .. I used candles from my opening ceremony and lit them with LOVE.

Drinking tea, eating Milky Bar, gazing at flowers and candles, listening to melodious mountains, Heaven is shaped like this right ?

Of course it does help that T has gone out for the day, did he do that for me ? The patterned and defensive me doubts it very much, the right here in this moment me likes to think he did.

So, downstairs in the freedom of the dining room with my welcome, the clouds and the rain, I created a mandala, I called it 'My Dog And Me'. I drew around my bare foot, cut round this shape and added toe nails ! I scanned this into the PC with a green background and shrunk it so it was tiny. I printed a streetmap of the area we walked, I put two maps together to make a circle and cut this out. I glued many little bare feet onto the map along our route. I made a green background for my map and finally added the dog's foot prints too.

I read about Orange in my colour therapy book - out of the pages jumped 'Orange removes inhibitions and psychological paralysis that occurs when people are afraid of moving forwards" !!

I had lunch with Kenny G and I coloured a mandala from a book, the dog helped keep me warm by falling asleep on my legs with his head on my lap. I found myself singing 'I'd like to teach the world to sing' and this led to an ABBA CD !!

T came back, was it all over ? No .. I made him a cup of tea and said I would cook pasta soup for dinner later. I gathered up my things and came to my room.

It's all good so far ....

I finished my day with pasta soup, some New Age music and a foot massage.