Feeling Better ?

.. this morning, I processed a lot and I felt ok with it all .. now, I lie down to let go .. it feels just as nice .. Rose, Orange & Ylang Ylang administered with a gentle touch like before .. hands on my throat feel uncomfortable .. approaching my heart, everything goes dark, I feel so desperately alone .. I am lost and floundering in the dark .. gradually, gradually, I'm loosing ground, loosing the plot .. L offers me some heart .. it's still dark .. I'm still alone .. I walk home .. there is a little patch of clouds which are glowing pink from within, I can't take my eyes of them .. suddenly, it's not so dark .. I cancel my plans and I sit in front of myself and my tigers all over again ..