Project Close - The Ending Is Profound

I thought sparklers were it .. they were not it ..

It was very windy but not raining .. I go out and setup the mandala of sparklers which will be my 'Grand Finale' .. there are various troubles as per my launch but, the sparklers burn - all of them - right to the bottoms, although too fast for me to be able to light the whole mandala together, I don't struggle with it, but I know it isn't it ..

 

.. I tidy everything up and I come to the side of the house (the site of my project launch), there are still traces of wax on the concrete from the various candle mandalas I have had here over the course of my project.

.. I stand in the centre of the circle which is now in my heart and I just rest there taking in the sodium lit sky which is completely cloudy, there is rain on my face .. there is traffic on the Causeway .. there is a drip from the broken guttering .. the bushes and trees are sillouetted against the sky and the wind is strong, it is rushing the trees .. in true project stylee, the light comes on in the lane flooding the garden .. I can feel the wind on my skin and the rain still on my face and I close my eyes to say the names of every Deepener and remember them in this moment and the journey we have shared .. then I remember D, S, A and S who also were a part .. it feels like the whole of my project, maybe the whole of my Deepening rests right here in this moment where I am with the world which shared my journey too and ..

.. I place my hand on my heart one final time to give thanks as I have many times over during my project journey ..


.. but, what happens is that there are already words in my mouth and they just come ..


and with my hand resting on my heart, I say 'I LOVE YOU'


.. and I did not make that happen, I can safely say this time that it did not come from a cognitive place - it came from the centre of my mandala in the centre of my heart ..

.. at the end .. and a spactatular end of a spactacular project ..