Practically Ready For Go ...

I have been collecting up all sorts of goodies for my project during December and January, so that following the February meet, I will be all set to begin my journey of discovery 'by Mandala'.

I have all manner of things creative and it's scary !

Moving Space

The space was there
And now it's gone
It's moved again
It's all a game
And I don't want to play
The space was there
And now I stare
Into the dark
Someone took and froze my heart
In time
Why do I live these lies, these lies
I need to leave them all behind
And turn toward the light today
Celebrate a new and peaceful way
If I don't
What will become
Of the good work I have done
Even though, it's still a mess
Deep down, I know there has been progress
Spiral up and spiral down
One day, I'll wear a spiral gown
Which only then will remind me of
The days of old, lost in the fog
The air will clear
And I will hear
The busy humming of the bees
Softly, softly, through the trees
The dark sky will be so bright
With longer days
And shorter nights
I pray for when I say I do
To the love I know can see me through

SH January 2006

The Deepening Meet Approaches

It's almost the end of January and the next meeting of the Deepeners is on the horizon.

Emotionally, January has been quite huge for me, several large movements have happened in therapy as I become more and more aware of why everything is as it is.

I have been de-cluttering my room for the start of my project. I have invested in a rocking, swiveling, reclining chair for contemplation and a sofa bed.

I have purged many un-needed 'things' from my space.

Am I looking forward to the coming meet ? I think so, although, I feel like it has been a long time coming around again and I don't know if it will be long enough for me to really drop in and 'come to Poulstone' fully. Although I am feeling low again, I am open as always to whatever processing offers itself to me.

For months now, I have suspected RSI in my right elbow, this week I finally saw the doctor and have been told I have inflammation in my elbow, shoulder and chest. I have also had a cranio sacral therapy and the message here was that holding in my chest around my heart chakra is causing holding in my back and shoulder and manifesting in my elbow. I have been trying to 'fix' this with Tai Chi exercises and after talking with R today, I am going to bring my awareness to it and just try to 'hear' it's call rather than be a victim or master of it as I have been doing.

I am still struggling big time with my weekly practice group in the absence of G where various things are pressing my buttons and a consequence is that I am no longer allowing it to nourish me.

I look forward to spending more time in R's teaching.

This Will Be My Sacred Space - January 2006

Sun Arise

The Miracle Of A Sunrise

We can only appreciate the miracle of a sunrise if we have waited in the darkness

Author Unknown